i'm sorry baby that i'm not having a major birthday party in school this year. i know you love the above aeroplane cake that i bought for you last year to celebrate in school. but i think its pretty sweet to have a smaller session with your good friends in class like nicholas, rachel, jannese right... =)

you were hiding behind me throughout the celebration last year remember. you are always shy at the wrong times one. want you to be shy, you jump around like a monkey. don't want you to be shy, you stick to me like glue.

anyways, i love you so so so much. it pains me when i discipline you. hard as it might but i still have to do it as its for yourself. i'm not a great mommy always but lets grow up together ok!

*muaks* happy 4th!

~ * ~ MEMOS TO ALL MOMMY & DADDY ~ * ~

don't spoil me...
i know quite well that i ought not to have all that i ask for. i'm only testing you.

don't be afraid to be firm with me...
i prefer it, it meakes me feel more secure.

don't make me feel smaller than i am...
it only makes me behave stupidly 'big'.

don't correct me in front of people if you can help it...
i'll take much more notice if you talk quietly with in private.

don't make me feel my mistakes are sins...
it upsets my sense of values.

don't protect me from consequences...
i sometimes need to learn the painful way.

don't be too upset when i say, "i hate you"...
it isn't you i hate but your power to thwart me.

don't take too much notice of my small ailments...
sometimes they get me the attention i need.

don't forget i cannot explain myself as well as i should like...
this is why i'm not always very accurate.

don't make rash promises...
remember that i feel badly let down when promises are broken.

don't tax my honesty too much...
i am easily frightened into telling lies.

don't be inconsistent...
that completely confuses me and makes me lose faith in you.

don't tell me my fears are silly...
they are terribly real, and you can do much to reassure me if you try to understand.

don't put me off when i ask questions...
if you do, you will find that i stop asking and seek my information else where.

don't ever suggest that you are perfect or infallible...
it gives me too great a shock.

don't ever think that it is beneath your dignity to apologise to me...
an honest apology makes me feel surprisingly warm towards you.

don't forget how quickly i am growing up...
it must be difficult to keep pace with me but do try.

don't forget i love experimenting...
i couldn't get on without it, so please put up with it.

don't forget that i can't thrive with lots of understanding love...
but i don't need to tell you, do i?